Hmm, how do I explain how I’m feeling right now.. omg I miss you so much, the fact that we’ve only seen each other once in person and a few other times just by skyping makes me kinda sad. The one time we got to see each other in person I was so shy. You’d always be hugging me and I’d just be there doing nothing. Sometimes I would actually hug you and be all cute and stuff but most of time I’d feel awkward when we were together. I only felt awkward cus you were my first ACTUAL boyfriend and it sucks that I lost you. Ever since you passed away, I’ve been all depressed, angry and I’ve been tearing up every night. I may not have been the best girlfriend and I’m sorry for that. I know I’m not the only one who misses you but I just needed to write this. No, I’m not writing this to get attention I just needed to write this cus I wanted to get all of my feelings out. It sucks how I told you and you told me that we would never leave each other but technically we did. :/ I couldn’t imagine us breaking up.. I imagined us dating at least longer than a month. But those 31 days were some of the best days of my life. A lot of people have been telling me to “move on”, to “stay strong” or “you’ll find someone new someday” Maybe I eventually will move on and I’m really trying my best to say strong but I can’t, I’m weak. I lost my mom, my dad has been in the hospital since February 2011 and my boyfriend’s gone.. But it’s like whenever I’m happy, something just has to ruin it. I wish I didn’t take you for granted, I just thought I would never lose you, I truly did love you so much babe and I still do. I really wish this didn’t happen, you were an amazing person; really sweet, nice, adorable and smart. No one can replace you. You were a great guy and I will never forget you.
060812♥ to ∞ and ⇨.
Diandra + Marc= Darc. Lol. :’) <3
Take care and God Bless babe, see you soon. :* xoxo.
![Happy birthday babykinns. <3 we all really miss you. I’ll never forget your weird moments on Skype, twitter and land. :’) I’m so lucky to have you as a boyfriend, I hope you know that. So glad that you’re mine and that I’m yours. Still wishing you could come back but I know that won’t happen. You’re probably watching over your family, friends and loved ones right now. We’ll never forget you babe. You were sucha cutie and sweetie, you still are. Aha ;] I love you babe, have an amazing 13th birthday! <33333 :*
Rest in paradise babe. Take care and God Bless. <3 xo](http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m9i1cdegK81qeesuso1_500.jpg)
